You have to know what you’re working for. You have to fix it firmly in your mind so when doubt looks you in the eye and asks “why?” you can have an answer ready. This is why. This.
It can be publication. You’re allowed to want something big. But I have to tell you the larger you make your goal, the harder you will have to hold on to it, because years could go by, years, and all you have is that one dream to keep you warm.
If I had to suggest something, I’d make it this: the writing. Make the joy of creation your goal and your reward and the doubt won’t be able to touch you. Write and you’ll find it. Write and you’ll never grow cold.