Planning

Flotsam and Jetsam

It’s been a little while since I posted last. In that time I’ve wallowed in a new story idea and I’ve completed another draft of Restless, which is now off with crit partners. This means I’ve got a bit of time on my hands, and it’s time to start making decisions about the Sea Story. I have my characters, my plot and my setting, but there is still one element I haven’t quite figured out. To me, it’s the most important part: Atmosphere.

All writers face the question, “Where do you get your ideas?” It’s a hard question to answer, because as far as I can tell, ideas are the flotsam and jetsam of the mind. They are the waste product after all your experiences, all the things you see and hear each day, have been sorted and cataloged in your brain. They are the mulch of our lives.

There are so many ways I could answer that question, but there is one answer I think would confuse people. I get my ideas from video games.

Not the core ideas, mind you. Not the plot or character or setting. But the most important part: Atmosphere.

I think I’ve mentioned before that I can’t start a story until I have the atmosphere down. The few times I’ve tried, I’ve lost interest in the story pretty quick. But honestly, I never knew this about myself until I discovered video games, or one video game in particular.

Now, I know I won’t be able to convince you to play the game itself, but here’s a sample of the music:

True, I could probably just listen to some music, but there is something so immersive about video games. In a way it’s like my post on wallowing. For a few hours, or a few days, you can get lost in this other world.

The game above was how I landed on the atmosphere for Restless. The video game I will be playing this weekend, and which I hope will help me nail down the atmosphere for the Sea Story, is called Heavy Rain. I think you can hear why:

And once I have my atmosphere, there will be nothing left but… to write!

I’m excited and nervous and I’m trying not to think of how long it will take me to write another book. A book is such a huge commitment. You really need to be sure. You have to know it’s the story you can live with for the next year or more. And the great thing? I’m certain. I’ve been unsure with other stories,  but not this one. THIS is the book I’m meant to write.

I just hope I can do it well.

P.S. For the curious among you, Flotsam and Jetsam are different kinds of shipwreck. I think that’s kind of apt, don’t you?

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2013, The Year Of…

I’ve heard that what you do on the first day of the year is what you will do all year. Today was the 1st of January, 2013. I woke up late, ate breakfast with my husband and our closest friends (two of whom now live with us!), started painting my bookshelves, which I’ve been meaning to do for months, and then we all went to the beach, where we just happened to run into my entire family. When we got home we had dinner together, I had a nice cool beer, and then we realized a nail had worked its way into a hot water pipe and our house was slowly flooding. Now I’m watching Jaws, one of my favorite movies.

I’m not sure what that means about my 2013, but I’m hoping it means it will be full of good times with friends and family, a year of realizing long-held dreams and goals, a year of house renovations (hopefully more successful than that nail), and a year of the sea.

That last one is very important to me, and it’s related to ‘realizing long-held hopes and dreams’. I’ve been a writer as long as I can remember, but even before that I loved the ocean. I love it. I love it’s wild, mysterious waters. I love the secrets it holds. I love swimming, I love getting dumped by wild waves, I love diving into a breaking wave and bursting out the other side, fresh and new. I love the ocean and I fear the ocean and those two things together are the perfect mulch for a story.

I’ve been trying to write a story about the sea for years. Since I was a teenager. But here’s the thing: when you’re writing about something you love you need the story to be good. You need it to be a good representation of the subject matter. You need to really love the story as much as you love the thing it’s about. I’ve tried and I’ve tried but it’s never been good enough.

In part it’s been about letting the story percolate. I needed to find the right angle. The other part, the bigger part perhaps, was about waiting until my skill level reached the level of my aspirations. It needed to be the right story, and I needed to do it well. And now, I think I’m ready.

In many ways, 2012 was the year I learned about hard work. I’d written a book before, and the first draft of another. I knew how to write a book from start to finish, but I had yet to learn how to write a really good book. In 2012, I revised. I revised and I revised and I revised. I’m still going, in fact. I learned that I don’t always get it right the first time. Or the second, third, forth, fifth or sixth time. I learned how to trust my instincts about whether something was good or not, about if something was ready, about if I had given my best possible effort. And I learned how to fix things.

I have the right story. I have my sea story. And I’m hoping I have the skill to pull it off.

Here are my 2013 resolutions:

- Read more
- Make a model ship
- Write Sea book
- Start running/yoga again
- Help my husband as he starts university

I’m really hoping 2013 will be the year of the sea.

An Island in the San Juan chain, WA.

An Island in the San Juan chain, WA.

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On Achieving Goals and Meeting Milestones

Since our dating days, one of Michael and my favourite things to do is go out for coffee or for a drive and talk about The Future. We’re goal oriented people. Since those early days there have been a few things we’ve been working towards: Going on a road trip around the US/Canada. Getting a puppy. Buying a house.

The road trip happened last year (and was amazing!). We welcomed a Labrador puppy into our family six weeks ago. On Friday we received pre-approval for a home loan.

We’re moving into a very odd period of our lives. In fact, since getting back from our Amazing Overseas Adventure the husband and I have been feeling a little out of sorts. All our hard work is coming to fruition. We’re having all the big adventures we always dreamed of. Now what?

We enjoy the fruits of our labour, right? Believe me, we are.Image

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But… is that enough? It’s not that we’re not happy, not satisfied with what we have. It’s that it’s not just about the end product. For Michael and I, a large part of the satisfaction comes from working towards the goal. So we’ve made new goals.

It’s a lot like novel writing. Recently I finished polishing a novel. It’s the best thing I’ve ever written. I’ve worked so, so hard. I suppose the larger goal would be publication, but I’ve written a novel that I’m proud of, and whatever happens next, this is more than enough for me. It’s SUCH an amazing feeling.

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My celebration: Buying book related items. The canvas for my character. The R for Restless.

But despite the satisfaction that comes from achieving my goal, soon enough I’ll want to be writing again. Soon enough I’ll long for the happiness that comes from the day-to-day. That comes from the work.

Some might ask “When does it stop?” For me, it never stops, and that’s the larger joy.

It’s not about not being satisfied with the goals I have achieved. It’s about being satisfied with the process. It’s about the work. It’s always about the work.

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Let’s Play Pretend

I know I promised a blog post full of puppy love, but unfortunately I was really sick last weekend and wasn’t able to visit our puppy after all. Sad face. BUT we pick her up on Tuesday! For good! I can hardly believe it’s finally time!

To welcome this new member into our family, I have taken three weeks of puppy-leave. So apart from puppy cuddles, for the next three weeks I get to play the ultimate game of pretend. I get to pretend I’m a full time writer! This will be me:

 

This is very exciting for me, obviously. I have great plans to venture into the wild of my revisions. I will be a Writer- Adventurer, like this (but hopefully not so terrified):

 

I will slay my doubt-demons and find the truth of my story like Alan Wake!

 

Story, prepare to be dominated.

 

To get to the end before I go back to work I have to revise about 4000 words per day (leaving the weekends as grace days). I think this is doable. Especially as I will have full access to the coffee machine, and regular puppy breaks to clear my head. Plus, I won’t get sick this time, as I normally do when I make a writing goal, because I got that out of the way last weekend!

I’m excited :D

So tell me, how are your goals going?

 

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Filling The Well

I’ve been taking some time lately to ‘Fill the well’. I have no idea how I came across this term, but I really like the idea that creativity is a well that must be added to in order to be sustained. Finishing Restless pretty much depleted my creative well down to its last muddy dregs, and as much as I would have loved to jump right into a new project, I knew I needed to take the time to fill it back up again.

How have I been doing that?

Well, this helped a great deal:

Restless Mock Cover

I have an incredibly talented, generous husband who loves to make mock covers for my books. This one is just perfect and it makes my heart sing to see such a lovely visual representation of my story. Those white things are moths, by the way, and they play an important role in the story. Thanks, Husband!!!

This is another way I’m filling the well:

Redhead Beach

I haven’t been to the beach in far too long and it was so lovely to go back there.

I’ve also been assembling my inspiration pics for the new story. This is one of them:

Wolf, taken at the Northwest Trek Wildlife Park

And no, I’m not writing a werewolf story :P

I’m also reading lots of books, researching puppy training for our May arrival, going to the movies (two in one weekend), taking up running again and spending lots of time with friends and family.

These things make for a happy soul and a full well.

How do you ‘fill the well’?

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Enforced Rest

There’s this thing that happens whenever I finish a big endeavor, whether it be uni exams or a novel. It’s so predictable I can pretty much put it in my calender, but I always hope this time will be different.

I get sick.

I’m really bad at taking breaks and slowing down. You know how I said I was taking this week off from writing? Yeah… I tried. But halfway through the week research books were delivered for my new novel, and then I had to type up the chapters I’d hand-written for Restless, and prepare for the read-through I’m doing this weekend…

As I said on Twitter, taking a break from writing is like communism. It sounds like a lovely idea, but in practice it Does Not Work.

Until your body decides to intervene and make you sick. So this week I’ve been stuck on the couch while we have one of the first sunny weeks of the summer, grrr.

I have managed to print off my manuscript, though. Look at the pretty:

Hand there to cover my address :) Can't figure out how to flip it so it isn't back to front, but you get the idea.

It feel so much more real now that it isn’t just a document on my computer!

In March I’ll be joining the March Madness Challenge. As I’ll be finished with Restless by that point (until my critique partners tell me all the things that are wrong with it, that is) I’ve been mulling what I should do. I was thinking I could start writing my planned next book, but it’s not quite at the stage that I’m ready to jump right in or commit fully to the one story.

Commitment is something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately. Like it or not, it takes me a fairly long time to write a book (six months for the first draft and at least that again for revisions) and I need to know the story I’m telling is one that will continue to excite me a year down the road, especially if it’s published, as then there are publisher-requested revisions, edits and a plethora of other book-related activities. It’s a big commitment.

The book I’m planning to write next is a lot like Restless. Not in subject matter, per se, but in tone and setting. In one way this is a good thing, as it means I might be finding my voice and style as a writer. But I worry that perhaps by writing this particular book I won’t be challenging myself. I won’t be learning anything new.

So, for March Madness I’ve decided to spread my wings a bit. For every week of March I’m going to write a short story in a different genre. I’m going to explore the possibilities. At the end of March, I think I’ll know whether to write the book I was planning, or to try something new altogether.

If you want to join March Madness (and please do, it will be fun!) I’m told Denise Jaden will be kicking off the festivities on her blog at the end of February.

Have a great weekend, all!

Cute right? Taken in Mt Rainier National Park, WA.

 

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The Year to Come

There’s nothing I love more than a new beginning. Starting fresh, making decisions to change your life for the better. I love beginnings so much that I create them: Mondays, mornings, hours of the day, whatever. You don’t have to wait to make a change, to achieve a goal. But as much as I love small beginnings, I get really excited about the big ones, and New Years? Yeah, it’s the Big One. I know that freaks people out a little, the pressure to change or to achieve goals each year. It’s kind of like if you tried to run the New York Marathon having never run a race before. I see all those little beginnings throughout the year as training. And come on, guys. If you don’t finish the race this year, is it really that big of a deal? You get a fresh start next year!

I’ve spent the last week thinking about what my resolutions might be. They’ve got to be specific, but not so specific you couldn’t possibly keep them up. For example, you want to lose weight next year? Don’t just make a goal to lose weight. Set a specific weight goal and use it to motivate you throughout the year. On the other hand, don’t go so specific that you’re bound to fail. Don’t make a goal to exercise three times a week, or never eat sugar. What happens when you fail once? You eat a donut or miss a workout. Is your resolution void? Your resolutions need to be specific and achievable.

So, dum-da-da-dah! My 2012 New Years Resolutions:

1. Query Restless

2. Write a New Novel

3. Work on increasing energy levels

4. Get a puppy

5. Make more writer friends

6. Get my P’s

Three and five might seem a little vague, but I have strategies, friends. Resolutions just don’t seem as pretty when they’re paragraphs long. For my American readers, ‘my P’s’ refers to my provisional car license. Aren’t I a little old not to have my license yet? Well, I’m a motorcyclist, which requires a different license. For years that has suited me just fine, but after my husband broke his hand a couple of weeks ago I realized it would be helpful for me to be able to drive a car in case of emergencies. So, new goal!

What are your resolutions? Really, I want to know!

Looking off into the future in Death Valley. Which, if you read post-apocalyptic literature, could in fact be the future.

Oh, and here’s my weekly word count. Pretty cool, right?

21000 / 70000 words. 30% done!

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One Crowded Year

2011 was a banner year for me. I got my first full-time job (a writing job!), I traveled overseas for the first time, I shelved my first novel and finished the first draft of my second, I found my first critique partner (hi, Shari!) and I started this blog.

These were my 2011 resolutions, posted in December of last year:

1. Read more books than I did in 2010
Maybe achieved? I didn’t keep track this year because after I got that job I figured there would be no way I’d achieve this goal. Then I went overseas and came back with a suitcase full of books!

2. Have some sort of conclusion regarding my first book, whether that’s a sale or retirement.
As I’ve already mentioned, I made the decision to shelve this one before I started Restless. I’m really happy I made this decision. It was a really important step for me, and I’ve come so far since.

3. Finish the first draft of another book.
Whoo!!!

4. Make progress on research/planning for Secret Project
Honestly, I have no idea what the Secret Project was. Maybe I should be less secretive about my resolutions next year!

5. Travel to the US
Insert Big Grin here!

6. Secret goal to do with day job
This one I had to be secretive about, as I couldn’t really announce I was looking for a new job before I quit the old one. For the record, my old workplace knew and was totally supportive about my plans. Over 50 people applied for the job, and after two stages of interviews and a trial period, I got it! And now I write for a living! Wheee!!!

Tick, tick, tick :D

Funny thing is, I have a feeling 2012 might just be bigger. I haven’t made resolutions yet, but here are a few things on the horizon:

- Getting a puppy (chocolate labrador), which will be happening sometime around March, we think. Turns out dog pregnancy is as difficult to plan as human pregnancy. (Hopefully no one skim-reads this and gets the wrong idea).
- Buying a house (which means setting up my office – wheee!!)
- Finishing and querying my second novel
- Starting my third novel
- Reading many, many fabulous books
- A short trip of some kind (the snow? Hawaii? Who knows?)

We have these Quote-A-Day calenders at work, and the other day one came up that really resonated with me. This isn’t the actual quote because I can’t remember it, but it was something close to this: “If you want to know your future, look at what you are doing in this moment.” That’s something I really believe in wholeheartedly. And yes, at this moment I am writing a blog, but tomorrow morning I will be waking up early, packing my laptop and heading to my favorite cafe to write for a couple of hours. And the next day, I’ll also be writing. I call myself a writer, but I can only do that because I’ve spent hours sitting down and writing. What do you want to be? Who do you want to be? Do that. Today. Now. Right this moment, and every moment you can possibly squeeze out of the day after it. Be the person you want to be. Create the future you want to have.

Oh, yeah. Something else you should know about me: Sometimes I get a little preachy about dreams and goal-making. Don’t worry, you’ll get used to it.

So how did my first week of revising go? Pretty awesome. I figured it would be good if I kept a digital graph, as well as a physical one. You know, so you can actually see it. But because I couldn’t be bothered fiddling with excel at this time of night, here’s a word count meter instead:

8000 / 70000 words. 11% done!

You may remember my weekly goal is 5000, so happy with my progress so far.

Anyway, sleep beckons (remember that early morning I have planned?), so I’ll bid you goodnight, and happy dreaming. I hope what you do this weekend makes you happy and helps you to see the future :)

Barista Beth. I really hope someone recognises where I'm standing!

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Ta Da!

In August 2009 I had a little freak out. There I was, 20 years of age, and what had I achieved? I’d spent my teens scribbling in secret, but had yet to ever write The End on a novel. I was a failure, and imposter, and I was getting old! (Feel free to laugh).

I decided something had to be done. I made myself a goal to finish a novel by my 21st birthday. And I did. Two and a bit years after I made that first goal, I’ve shelved that first novel (which taught me so much and made me some contacts in the industry, but just wasn’t ready) and am currently revising a second.

I’ve come along way since first writing Chapter One, and this blog reflects that. There was a time no one but my parents knew I was a writer. It was something I held so close and dear, I guess I was afraid it would break if I shared it. Over time, my husband and a few close friends were let in on the secret. Then I started my first blog in order to keep track of my progress and share all that I was learning writing that first novel, but I still wasn’t ready to claim it with my real name.

Sharing that first story with my friends and the agents I sent it to was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, and for awhile I thought maybe the writing had broke because of it. But I survived, and grew stronger and more confident because of it.

More recently, I shared the first chapter of my WIP (work in progress) with two writers I know online. Writers. People who I respect, who know what they’re talking about. People I’ve never even met reading the first draft of my story. And guess what? I survived again!

I don’t think bravery is innate. I think it’s something you choose. And with writing, it’s something I’ve had to choose again and again. I choose it again today, in launching my new blog under my actual name. I’ll choose it again in a few months when I send my WIP off to critique partners, and then to agents. I choose it ever day because writing is who I am, and I’m not hiding anymore.

Writing Progress

As I mentioned above, I’ve just started the first revision of my second novel, currently titled Restless. I’ve given myself the goal of finishing this revision by the end of February. If you read my old blog at all, you’ll know I am pretty much obsessed with goals and charts and organization. If you didn’t read my old blog, here’s your introduction to my crazy ways:

Restless revision planner

Hmm, maybe I should have written a little larger. If you can see those silver stars, they’re the word count I’m planning to hit each week. Along the bottom is Week 1, Week 2 etc. Up the side is my word count in 10,000 word blocks, up to 70,000 (which is what I estimate the book will be at the end). At the end of each week I’ll enter the current word count and do a little happy dance every time I end up over my goal. I know I will this week, as I’m already over :)

I’ll keep you up to date as I go.

What’s To Come

I’m trying to decide whether to import all my old posts or not. I’m thinking I might do a regular “from the archives” post, where I’ll highlight a favourite post from days past.

In terms of life stuff, in the next few months we will be buying a house and getting a new puppy (chocolate labrador) so there will be plenty of updates on that front.

While I’m revising Restless, I’m also brainstorming a few other projects. I never really know what I’ll write next until I get there, but I like to have a few things ready to go. One of these projects is a young adult novel, a thriller like Restless. The other is new and exciting and I don’t want to say much about it, but let’s just say I may finally be ready to write the story I tried to write with book 1. I’m dancing now, that’s how excited I am about this project.

I’ll also be posting my annual New Years Resolutions posts (did I mention I like making goals?) and a rundown of my favourite books of 2011.

Have a great weekend, all.

The Husband and I on our recent trip to NYC (I've always wanted to say that!)

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