Monthly Archives: December 2010

2010 Recap and New Years Resolutions

I know you’re all aware of how much I love goals and resolutions so I won’t harp on about it again.

2010 was pretty damn great. I finished my first novel and several rounds of revisions. I made some career decisions that have put writing firmly in the front seat. I started planning our trip to the US and roped in some friends to come with us. I changed majors and universities. I turned 21. It’s been an amazing ride.

There have been a few challenges along the way, such as being hit by some fierce insomnia for the greater part of the year, but I think I handled them with positivity and faith, so I’m not unhappy with the year as a whole.

Here’s a look at my 2010 resolutions and how I did in achieving them:

1. Read 80 books. I realised rather quickly that this wasn’t going to happen. Part of my motivation for making this goal to begin with was to figure out how much I could read in a year. My total was largely affected by my sleeplessness – I find it near impossible to concentrate when tired – but still, I’m pretty happy with my total of 33. And that total would be MUCH higher if I counted how many times I’ve read Tiger Eye ;)

2. Have a polished manuscript ready for submission to agents by the end of the year. This one is also largely achievable because, as outlined above, I’m already on track. I plan to have finished a second draft by May, ready to be critiqued by my reader-friends and anyone I can else I can convince to read it. Done!!! I’m very proud of this one. Back when I made this goal I couldn’t have imagined the amazing responses I’ve received.

3. Go to the gym 80 times. This is just under twice a week. I find this one particularly daunting. I’ve definitely worked out over twice a week for extended periods of time before, but for some reason the ‘gym’ part of the equation scares me a bit. I know it will be heaps of fun once I get up the guts to try the place out properly – there’s a pool! and treadmills! and yoga classes!  – so hopefully this resolution pushes me through the fear. Ha! How cute.

4. Save up enough dough for a house deposit. You may notice I didn’t make this one "buy a house", although that is definitely on the cards. This is because we are not sure yet whether Michael will be able to work once we get to the US in 2011 and if he can’t we will need all the money we can possibly scrounge up to survive for the year. Wow. I didn’t realise we were still planning to go on exchange back then. Plans have changed dramatically – we are now going to the US with friends for 2 months in 2011 and buying a house with those same friends in 2012. And I’m very happy with our savings this year :)

5. Do 80 bible studies from my "Search the Scriptures" book. The book is intended for completion in a year, but I know that if I set a goal of doing a bible study every single day I will most definitely disappoint myself. 80 seems to be the watchword for this year’s resolutions. Soon after I made this goal something pretty amazing happened – Michael and I actually found a couples Bible study to join! It’s been such an amazing year, getting to know these lovely people, learning about God together. Combined with my personal bible study sessions I’m certain I’ve done at least 80, if not from the one study as I’d planned. I’ve also learned to use prayer to help my writing and I feel a great deal of my growth this year has its genesis in that.

6. Turn 21. Ha! It’s good to have one in there that I know I will complete no matter what. Tick!

So what’s in store for 2011? Here are my resolutions so far:

1. Read more books than I did in 2010

2. Have some sort of conclusion regarding my first book, whether that’s a sale or retirement.

3. Finish the first draft of another book.

4. Make progress on research/planning for Secret Project

5. Travel to the US

6. Secret goal to do with day job

And that’s it. I’m a bit wary of trying to take on too much this year as much of it will be taken up by travel/planning travel. You may notice I didn’t put down any health goals and that’s because this year my health and how much I exercised was largely out of my control. I suppose if I did make a goal it would be to pursue a healthy lifestyle with the right motivations – not to be skinny, not because of negativity, but because health is empowering and vital to our happiness and wellbeing.

I think more than any other time in my life, 2010 has been a year of clarifying what really matters to me. I made sacrifices for those things I care about. Family, friends, writing, health. I think my stress levels in general have been pretty under control. I chug along, enjoying the special moments, working towards my goals with my loved ones always by my side.

Here’s to 2011! I’m sure it’s going to be an amazing year.

What do you have planned?

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Favourite Books Read in 2010

Querying update: So finding the fun worked so well that I’m about a quarter of the way through an agent requested revision of Tiger Eye! And having a lot of fun with it. While I work through this revision, and while the publishing industry is on holidays, I’ve held off on querying, so I won’t have any news for another month or so.

Next week, if I have the time what with all the parties and fun stuff, I’ll post an entry on Resolutions… the triumphs, the defeats and rallying for a new year. In the meantime, I’ve assembled a short list of my favourite reads for the year and what they have taught me about writing and myself. Most of these didn’t come out this year, I just read them this year – my budget is tight and I buy mostly from second hand stores!

1. Shiver and Linger by Maggie Stiefvater
Why I loved it so: It’s a love story that grows you, stretches you, never falls into cliche and stays true to character. Bittersweet. Lovely.

Taught me about writing: Words can be beautiful as well as functional. This might be obvious, but I spent most of my childhood writing flowery descriptions and much of the time since then cutting out every word that doesn’t serve a purpose (blame my journalism training).  Maggie’s writing taught me beauty and purpose go hand in hand and the most beautiful description is the true one. 

Taught me about myself: I love me some angst! It feels unkind to say so but I want characters to suffer. I want to feel when I read. I want to be touched. I want to read through my tears as I sob on the couch.

2. Odd Thomas by Dean Koontz
Why I loved it so: Voice! Character! Compared to a YA or a hard boiled mystery (of which I have read A LOT this year) the plot unfolded quite slowly and not a lot really happened until the very end, but I was so sucked in by this character! I would read Odd’s shopping list if I could.

Taught me about writing: How integral voice is in a story. The character’s speech patterns, his/her observations and world view, all should reveal character and draw the reader into the world. Especially when the world is as weird as Odd’s.

Taught me about myself: I love a good thriller. I didn’t know this before, as I’ve never read many thrillers. I lovelovelovelovelove them! Give me fear, give me anticipation, make me read until the wee hours of the morning and I’ll be happy.

3. Bag of Bones by Stephen King
Why I loved it so: It was so different than anything I’ve ever read… mainly because I’ve never read King before! Which is a travesty because he is such a great writer. He’s the type of writer than I want to be. I don’t care much about awards and the stamp of literary approval from the critics. I care about the reader. I want them to love what they are reading, be so sucked in that they can’t put the book down. King is great at honesty in his writing, too, and I’m not quite there yet. I care too much what people will think of me. This is something I want to work on.

Taught me about writing: Story comes from character. The whole ‘boys in the basement’ metaphor – just because I’m not at a keyboard doesn’t mean I’m not working on my writing – I’m letting my subconscious work. Also, much about how to write ‘creepy’ scenes.

Taught me about myself: Whoops, kind of answered that one above. One of my biggest writing fantasies is having King read one of my books and give it a positive review.

4. The Dead-Tossed Waves by Carrie Ryan
Why I loved it so: Ultimate zombie book. And ocean! I’d love almost anything that was set by the ocean. This was the book I’d hoped Ryan’s first would be. And the primary difference between the two: character.

Taught me about writing: How important it is to have a relatable main character. I loved the plots of both Forest and Waves, but I hated Mary and I loved Gabry and that made all the difference. Relatable doesn’t mean without flaws – on the contrary, flaws are what makes a character relatable. But at some point a character can become so damaged that they are a complete shell, and not interesting to read about at all. I encountered this in the Hunger Games series as well. In order to feel connected to a character, and in turn the story, the character needs to feel strongly about things – preferably people. They need to care about their actions. They need to have loved ones. Without these things it’s hard to care about the story at all. I’m not saying this is true for all fiction, just true for the stories I like to read.

Taught me about myself: I like to read stories about people I can relate to on an instinctual level. Also with the angst :D

5. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
Why I loved it so: Oh, how I love a good dystopian. My first was the Obernewtyn Chronicles by Isobelle Carmody, and I like this book almost as much. The second and third, not quite so much due to plot conveniences and the character stuff I mentioned above.

Taught me about writing: How to keep a reader in your grip. How to write violence and tragedy without going to a place of despair. How characters can be outwardly strong but inwardly weak and broken, and how much the reader wants them to become fixed by the end of the book/series.

Taught me about myself: How I’m not quite so bothered by violence in fiction as I am violence in movies/tv. I wonder why this is… Also, I will always root for the boy the girl loved first.

And I’m out of time folks, but I hoped you enjoyed this little run down. I’d like to make a few comments on what I think this list as a whole reveals about me and my writing but that will have to wait for later.

Merry Christmas!!!

 

 

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Finding the Fun

You may have noticed from my last post that the querying/submitting process is making me a little anxious. For the past few weeks I’ve been this little ball of neuroses bouncing around my house (because I’ve been sick and haven’t been able to leave). Thing is, the news on the querying process is all positive. I’m really proud of my story and the responses it is getting. But there’s something so incredibly draining about putting oneself out there to be judged and rejected.

Worse than all that is, it’s been affecting my writing. Suddenly every time I even think about Possible Shiny New Project (PSNP) my mind is flooded with the fear and worry that has been dogging me since I first hit ‘send’. This happens with all my projects, to some extent. The market, the rules, always intrude. But this time it’s worse, because I’m also actively querying. It’s like I have two brains – the business brain and the creative brain. I only have enough blood to fuel one at a time, and I don’t seem to have much control over which takes the lead.

I know the only way to move forward on PSNP is to let go of all this stuff. Let go of even the self-imposed stuff like my Summer Goals. Let go of every inkling that this could sell one day. The only way I can write again is if I remember how to find the fun.

That’s why I write – because I love it. I write because it entertains me, because I enjoy the process of creating a story over every other endeavour I’ve ever tried. Even reading. It’s easy to forget how much I love it. It’s easy to start thinking my motivation is money, career and all of that stuff. But that can’t be my motivation – only my goal.

Thanks for all the gentle nudges, guys. I know I tend to obsess about things – that whole two brain thing again.

But tomorrow, and for the rest of December, I’m going to follow one goal: To find the fun. Who knows what I’ll end up writing. Short stories. Flash fiction. Haiku. Fanfiction. Whatever, as long as I am enjoying it. Probably none of these will end in a novel, or a successful submission, or a career. But it will have saved me in a much more profound manner.

I’m going to learn to love writing again.

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Who Am I?: Writer angst edition

This is going to sound very, very silly but one my main motivations for trying to find an agent is that I want to know who I am as a writer. Let me explain. Ever since I started writing (kindergarten, I think: I wrote an interpretation of "The Very Hungry Caterpillar" that was much lauded by my teachers) I have written stories for the age group I was in. When I was in primary school, I wrote children’s stories, when I was in early highschool I wrote middle grade stories, late high school YA stories. Up until recently I had the idea that YA is where I would stay. Perhaps this is because I still see myself as a young adult. An adult? Who me?

And then I sent out queries for TE. Turns out it isn’t a fully YA story. I probably should have figured this out on my own: There’re no school, teachers or parents in my story. Other than one minor character, Ophelia is actually the only teenager in the story. Yes, I am an idiot. So I’ve been querying a range of agents to see where I get the responses, and this will give me a bit of direction, a bit of self-actualization.

What kind of writer am I? Am I really a young adult writer? Or am I an adult writer? And if adult (which I know nothing about as I always thought I would end up in YA) where exactly? Urban fantasy? Mystery? Thriller? Romantic suspense?

They say you should write the book of your heart and this will give you an idea of what kind of writer you are. For instance, Carrie Ryan always thought she was a chick-lit writer, and she spent years trying to write in this genre, without success. Then one year she sat down and wrote the story she wanted to write, without thought to genre or self-catagorizing. She ended up writing a YA literary zombie book which sold a few months after she sent it out. Obviously she is not a chick-lit writer. Problem is, I’ve already done this. TE was the book of my heart. I paid no attention to the age of my characters or other YA conventions (because I really thought I was writing YA), I just wrote the story I wanted to. 

So far my responses have been a bit of a mixed bag. Bearing in mind that most of my queries are as of yet unanswered, I’ve had one request from a YA agent, and one request from an agent who reps both YA and adult, but to which I descibed TE as an adult urban fantasy. The first (YA) agent absolutely loved my story and thought I was a very strong writer, but wanted me to revise in some YA conventions (ie parents/other teenagers) to make it more clearly a YA story. The second agent just requested the full this morning and I haven’t yet heard her thoughts.

So what if I’m not the YA writer I thought I was? What if TE is actually an adult book? I have no idea what genre it would fit into (urban fantasy is a bit of a stab in the dark). I have no idea what genre/kind of story I should write next. And this is my biggest issue. I really, really want to start writing my next project soon. I get itchy when I’m not actively working on a story. But I have a whole range of ideas and not much idea which direction to head in. One of the best things about agents is that they work as career counsellors as well as all their other job functions. An agent would be able to look at my writing and tell me which genre my voice lends itself to.

Sure, I’m still having YA ideas but I’m starting to realise that it’s all in the execution. If I write a ‘YA’ novel with only one teen character, it isn’t really YA. I’m less and less interested in writing about the struggle againts parental authority, or about school. I’m more interested in other, more obviously adult themes.

So that’s another reason I’m anxiously awaiting replies to my queries. Even the replies themselves will (hopefully) give me an idea of the direction I should head. Will I revise TE to be more in fitting with the YA genre? Maybe. I’m thinking on it, definitely not ruling anything out. But at the moment I’m actually leaning towards marketing it as an adult urban fantasy.

This scares the heck out of me. I’m no adult. Or am I?

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